Isn't it beyond words how the cycles of the year can renew and refresh?
Praise God from whom all blessings flow!
It's May 2nd.
The day before our 4th year unable to celebrate Ben's birthday with him.
But do you know, that because of how this strange life I ushered myself into waaaayyyyy back in 1993 has unfolded, I couldn't even celebrate Harrison's birthday with him this year in March?
The first son stopped living on earth the fall of his sophomore year.
The second son stopping living his life, though he's physically still with us, the fall of his sophomore year. I mean...stopped, completely.
The third son is entering his freshman year this fall and I am a mother bound and determined that this unbelievable pattern stops NOW.
I was bound and determined to get help for the second son too, well, let's get real now, I was also bound and determined to get help for the first son too...and was thwarted at every turn. Yes, I was...I was 100% thwarted...from helping Ben...and now Harrison.
Sorry so cryptic, likely too much and also too little. I'm still unclear what it is this unimaginable parenting experience from the last five years is supposed to bring about but I do know that it has strengthened my faith and has drawn me to flooding myself with the Word, the Truth that we have been given and the incredible gift of eternal salvation, knowing then that these earthly trials are not mine to bear alone.
Praise God from whom all blessings flow!
With each season we can still be renewed and refreshed, despite it all!
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